Today is just so blah for me- i have to clean the house ..... so that should be fun... i'm listening to project playlist and all my songs... i am missing my Matty so bad right now ! he is sick today and i feel so bad that i'm not there to take care of him- i want to be there to make sure he is resting- to take his tempature - to give him his meds and make sure he is doing ok..... but my love is always with him and i hope he knows that.... i love him so much that i can't stand it ! getting through the next couple of months without him is going to be a real challenge- i am hoping the days won't drag on and on- and i'll soon be in his arms again.... i can't wait to feel that warm save feeling and my have to catch my breath and have my heart beat faster just knowing i'm touching him.... Matt is my all and i know in my heart i will always love him and be devoted and true.... i can't wait to have his baby and be a family- Me , Matt, His sons ( Anthony and Alecxander ) and our baby..... this is my biggest dream in life- to be with him and be happy..... the thought of losing him is like a never ending nightmare that i would never be able to wake up from.... i can't picture my future without him and no matter what we've been through- thats in the past and i can't wait to start our lives together and start new and have all the bad stuff behind us- i look forward to our future and our now- and i know we can make it through everything..... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nE11Zrrp24Ii dedicate this song to you Matt - "TAKE MY HAND AND WE WILL MAKE IT I SWEAR!" WE'VE GOT EACH OTHER AND THATS A LOT FOR LOVE ,- GIVE IT A SHOT " WE'RE HALF WAY THERE - LIVIN ON A PRAYER"........
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I hope that things work out just the way you want them to. You deserve to be happy. You are a sweetheart.. luv ya..