The urges subsided today a great deal, and I wasn't particularly moved to gamble. I did a lot of research about malignant melanoma and it just depressed me more!!!!! I really need to get a grip and just wait for the results. If they happen to be favorable, I will have had my panties in a bunch for nothing. Either way, I want to really examine my life and priorities. So much waste.... Maybe realizing the importance of making the most of life is the positive side of a "brush with death." The type of cancer I possibly have and hope to rule out is the most invasive kind there is, with a 5 yr survival rate of 10 - 40%. Whew. OK. Hopefully I'll get a happy result. If not, I'll have to figure out how to deal with it....one thing to be thankful for is that if I were still gambling, I wouldn't even have had the money for the biopsy, and probably wouldn't even have noticed the mole anyway. Gambling compulsively makes life pretty impossible for me. My goal for tomorrow is to not obsess, and not to gamble.
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you can use your goal for tomorrow to get thru the rest of today, cause tomorrow doesn\'t count yet....it hasn\'t even happened....the only day we can do anything about it TODAY, the here and now....one day at a time..keep positive thoughts, don\'t dwell on anything negative, its poison.
hugs and love
Danya
I hope your tests are good. You are dealing with this in the best possible way you can. You are also doing it GF. Only good things can comeout of be GF. I will pray for you and wish you the best, Hang in there HUGS xoxoxo Tasha
I hope your test turns out ok too!! I know what you are going through waiting - I was there back in October. Stay positive... no matter what the results, you will get through this. Stay strong, one day at a time.. You can do this!