Today was a better day.  Not focusing excessively on gambling.  Went to the gym and worked out, and noticed an improvement in my mood afterward.  That seems to consistently help me, so it needs to continue to be a regular thing for me.  My health has deteriorated so since I started gambling- constant lack of sleep from gambling until too exhausted to go on several nights a week...effects of constant financial stress, not to mention the adrenaline highs and lows from winning/losing and then losing/losing/losing!  If I can pull through this financial crisis, I have a shot at rebuilding my life and health.  I can't get back what I've lost, but I can pick up the pieces and repair what I can.  The only other alternative is complete crash and breakdown with nothing left to repair.  I just can't go there.