well, i have faith in the health care system again!  i was referred to another neurologist and have my first appt tomorrow.  i'm excited to get it over with and start treatment, if i need it, but i do feel anxious.  there may be vomiting today!  i've also come to the conclusion that small town gossip can kiss my ass.  i went home to see my family on the weekend, in my home town of 1000 and found out that my diagnosis is somehow making it around.  my neighbours asked my parents about it, so someone is talking.  i really don't care who knows, but i was instantly livid.  mainly because i have 70 aunts, uncles and cousins that have no idea about it yet.  and i don't think town gossip is the way they should find out.  seriously, how do people feel right talking about this?  all i need is for a bunch of people to find out and start asking my poor parents about it.  ok, i'm done ranting.