The song says "suicide is painless"  F*** it all- I'm gonna try it.  Couldn't hurt any more than this life I'm living.   I may have to giv custody of Jonathan to my parents.  The state of Ohio has f***ed me so hard this time.  I cannot afford health care for Jonathan, and because Rob and I are still legally married, they are counting his income so I cannot get him on medicaid.  I contacted the Ohio Legal Aid Society for help paying for a lawyer to get a divorce, and they rejected my case, stating that I wasn't a priority and they have limited funding.  Rob's insurance at his job rejected Jonathan due to the autism diagnosis.  The FUCKING Autism Society is of no help, and only gives me a list of phone numbers to all the places that have turned me down for assistance.NEVER EVER DONATE TO THE ASA!!!  THEY TAKE MONEY FROM THE PEOPLE WHO DONATE TO THEM, BUT ARE OF ABSOLUTELY NO HELP TO THE PEOPLE AND FAMILIES AFFECTED BY AUTISM.  THEY ARE A F***ING JOKE! BURN YOUR PUZZLE RIBBONS AND STOP DONATING TO THEM!!!  THEY ARE THERE TO LINE THEIR POCKETS ONLY.  THEY DON'T OFFER ANY SERVICES!!!!