You can try all you want- they will never change.  I did everything I could, tried and tried, and then tried some more.  I tried to be a good wife.  I gave myself 100% to our marriage.  He gave about .005% to it.  So, how come I am the one who is sleeping on the couch?  I anxiously await the day I get the very last of my things out of this house and I can walk away from this painful marriage.  I'm excited about leaving, but depressed that I am stuck here for now.The thing is, he STILL doesn't get it.  Everything is someone else's fault.  Usually mine.  I handed him his credit card back last night after he had me run up to Arby's for him.  He didn't put it back in his wallet, and it got lost (we found it under his recliner).  First thing he does is blame me.  Accused his very own wife of STEALING it.  Figures, huh?  It's always been this way.  Something goes wrong, I must have done it because he thinks I am out to get him.  So much for the parnership of trust and love which I always believed were the cornerstones of marriage.  I am not saying I haven't done anything wrong, but I can admit to that.  He can't.  He thinks that he is never at fault for anything, and that I have ruined EVERYTHING.  He thinks he can just do whatever he wants (porn, checking out other women, beating me, calling me names, treating me like a slave) and that I have to just deal with it.  He's in for a huge shocker when he comes home from work in a few weeks, and his slave/punching bag is gone.  Did he SERIOUSLY think that I would put up with this for the rest of my life?!?!?!?  I am better than this, and I deserve better!!!  I am not going to be stuck in a loveless and abusive marriage until I die- either by him murdering me, or of natural causes.  No thank you!  I have a life to live, and happiness to find!!!  I am not going to sit here any longer and let him do this to me.  I have no feelings left for him at all.  Believe me, I have TRIED to feel something for him, but there's nothing there.  Years of abuse, and being lonely and scared will do that to a woman.  I just can't wait to get it all over with!!!At this time next month, I will be sleeping peacefully.  I will be moving on with my life, and improving myself overall.  I will have my son by my side, and he's all that I need.  I will rest easy, knowing that my (soon-to-be) ex-husband won't be teaching my 4-year-old son to beat women and to call his mother a whore.  I can't wait to get out, I can't WAIT to breathe!!!  No more heartache, no more beatings, no more name calling, no more of me taking the blame for HIS actions!  YAY!!!!