Have you ever felt so good that NOTHING can bring down your mood? That's how I'm feeling.  I don't know why though.Today was kinda long.  Rob was sick yesterday and today, so he went to the doctor today.  They thought he had apedicitis (spelling lol?)  and they sent him over to the hospital for a CT scan.  Turns out it's something else, but they were talking about emergency surgery.  He disn't need it.  Forgive me, but no part of me really cared.  Today, I realized that I don't really care about him anymore.  I gave so much of my love and trust to him, and he did everything he could do to break my heart and rip me to shreads.  There's just nothing left at all in my heart for him.  He's just another person to me.  I hadn't realized that until today.  Then, while Jonathan and I sat in the waiting room at radiology, Jonathan started saying really loud, "Mommy's a whore!" Repeating it over and oer again.  Rob has told him to say that to me several times, most recently this past Sunday.   Then, he repeated it in front of a room full of people.  When Rob came back out, I told him what had happened, but dropped the subject due to not wanting to argue in front of everyone.  When we got into the car, I told him how upset it made me.  And of course, he blamed me for it, saying I should have punished him for it.  He didn't apologize for TEACHING him that, and took no blame for it whatsoever.  It's all MY fault, and that's just how he sees it.  That's when I realized that he isn't worth it, and there's nothing left at all.