I love him. I keep searching for things that I have done wrong. Where was the mistake? What did I do? I have to know so I don't make the same mistake again. I have to know, but he won't tell me. I need closure. I need an ending. Sometimes, I wish he would cheat on me, then I'd have an excuse to give to my heart. He did before, but that was before. I need something new. Or, I want HIM to end it. I want HIM to say it's over. Not out of anger, but just talking to me. Something. Anything. I hate this 'limbo' that I'm in. I hate this feeling. I want to leave. I don't want to leave.I know everyone wants me to leave him. I want to leave him. But, what's stopping me? I know all of the bad things that are going on are more than enough reason- but I need a push. I need something. I need him to say it. Why? I don't know. I may never know.
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Melinda, he has pushed you and hit you and called you names. You are too smart to be so blind. I love you honey but you HAVE TO BE THE ONE TO STOP THIS> did you go to therapy today.
Melinda, you have emotional attachment to him, because of the good times/memories, but you also need to keep in mind, the emotional part that has been abusive. He has treated your poorly hun, ad i can\'t tell you to leave him, as that\'s your decision to make. i want you and your son to be safe, and happy. i believe, you have the push. You considering leaving, is your mind, your emotions, telling you that you deserve better. You realize, you deserve better, listen to your emotions. :)
Melinda, Please listen to me. NOTHING YOU COULD EVER DO WOULD WARRANT ABUSE! NOTHING! Rob is never going to end the relationship. It\'s your choice to be in limbo. You\'re staying in this relationship out of weakness. Rob has had every opportunity to get help, and he refuses! It\'s only a matter of time before he hits you, or pushes you again. Make the decision to leave out of strength! Pack up Jonathan, and all that you can get in YOUR car, and go to the police station. They will help you, and you\'ll be safe. I care about you, Melinda. It\'s time to let your head rule instead of your heart. Love and light, Susan
I meant that I have to know so that I do it again with the next man...
I just now realized what that said...
You did nothing wrong melinda. you did nothing but love him untill he ruined your life and your face. Not to mention the emotional abuse your son has suffered. be brave and keep going to therapy.
Melinda, Chris is right nobody can tell you to leave but you are considering it so please listen to your emotions. I totally understand where you are coming from because I have been there. It isn\'t an easy decision to make to you leave the father of your child/ren but it is sometimes better for you and the child/ren to get out.