Again with the hitting. Again with the porn. Again with him trying to kill me. Only this time- I actually wanted him to do it. I wanted him to end my life. I wanted him to squeeze harder and longer. I just stared into his eyes, unable to make a sound with his tight grip. I wanted him to see in my eyes that I wanted to die. I wanted him to do it more than I have ever wanted anything else. I wanted the pain to be gone. I wanted to be gone. I wanted to be free of this- free of my physical pain, free of this heartbreak, free of this body that I hate so much. Free of it all. No more sadness in my heart. No more tears to cry. No more punches to my head. No more worrying over whether he loves me or not. No more of anything.But he stopped and let go.
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Melinda, you DO NOT deserve this. You need to take your son and leave. Go to your parents or some safe place. I know it is not that easy, as I told you, I have been there but nobody deserves to live with this fear. This is not love that he is showing you. Your son needs a safe, loving environment not anger and violence. Again, I am not saying it will be easy because it is not and I well know that. But I do know that I found peace of mind when I got rid of my violent husband. I was able to sleep at night and not worry and wonder if someday he too would turn this on his son. Hugs and I am here if you need to talk. Sharon
Sweetheart, you do not deserve to be abused like that. You and your son need to get out of there and go somewhere where you and your son will be safe. No one deserves to be abused and live in fear. You don\'t need him treating you that way. I will always be here for you Hun. Teresa
Melinda, you don\'t deserve this physical and emotional abuse. please hun, do what\'s best for you and your son, and seek help. You both deserve a more peaceful lifestyle, and rob needs professional help. i talked to you on the phone, about how he brings you down. You get ahead, and he always pulls you back down to his level. You Melinda, are on a MUCH higher level than him. he beats you, to instill fear, and to make himself feel strong, but hun, rob is weak, and you are the strong one. Don\'t let his weakness overpower your strength. Use your strength, to seek help, to seek a better way of life. i love you hun, and i am always here for you. HUGS
Melinda, Don\'t wait until the weekend to leave! Take your husband to work, go home and start packing. If someone has a truck, get them to help you. He\'s calling your bluff, Melinda, and he doesn\'t believe for one minute that you\'re going to leave! Think about Jonathan! Don\'t let the last memory he has of his wonderful, caring mother to be of you lying in a casket! After you leave, go to the police and file a restraining order against him. DO NOT LET THAT MONSTER WIN OVER YOU!!! This is a crisis situation, and you need to act fast. I\'m praying hard for you, Melinda. Love and Hugs, Susan
Melinda, I was asked by one of your friends here to interven in this. YOU MUST LEAVE NOW!!!!! IF NOT FOR YOURSELF, FOR JONATHAN...I KNOW IN THE PAST YOU DIDN\'T WANT TO HEAR THJIS...WHY????? WHY???? do you ALLOW THIS TO GO ON?????? CALL THE POLICE AND LOCK THIS MAN UP !!! HE IS SICK!!! WHY DO YOU WANT TO DIE ??????? everyone here has told you over and over again...they have been loving and gentle with you but the time is critical and you must leave if you want to live...call your local shelter, let friends or family know what is going on for petes sake , let someone take care of kitty, you can do this...or you will die...this is against the law...this is ATTEMPTED MURDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THERE ISN\'T ANYTHING WE CAN DO HERE FOR YOU BUT LISTEN AND GIVE ADVICE...BUT THIS HURTS ALL OF THE PEOPLE THAT CARE ABOUT YOU HERE..IT\'S UP TO YOU NOW...IT WILL ONLY GET WORSE...DOES YOUR HUSBAND THINK HE WILL GET AWAY WITH KILLING YOU??? ask him that!!!