Thursday, February 28, 2008

Well it has been a while since I posted anything about my progress or feelings. I have had a rough 3 weeks and my weught has told on me. I have managed to gain some back from my family vacation. Then on top of this Ihaven't truly been mindful to my food choices because so much of my energy has been dedicated to schhol/homework. I feel like I have been planted in front of the computure for days. Between reading textbooks and creating powerpoints and writing papers time, food and all other personal goals have flown right out th window.On a positive note I waeighed in last week and had lost 3 of the pounds I had gained back.  I keep telling myself that I want this, but I fail at sticking to my guns. I don't want to be 100% good, but I do want to be 85/15 % good. I have really been contrmplating gastric bypass and this is a stressful topic with my family. They don't want me to do it, and they also forget how addictive food is to me. I want something that will help control my hunger  and help me stay more focused. I feel like I am truly floating in a pool of emotional goo. Just about the time I figure something out or have made up my mind, I either sabotage myself or allow others to influenc me. On a bright side. I did pack my lunch today and I went to work. So at least two of the three meals will be planned and helpful.