Nervous
I am so nervous about the future. I want so desperately to be her hero, her strength and make feel safe again, to give my son the family security he so much deserves... but don't know if the scares and fears are just too great.
I can't get out of my head the question she asked "How can I trust you again, how will I know you just won’t go back to the yelling and anger?" My first reaction as I said the other day was simple... "Because I know what the consequences are and the price is too great."
But it is more than that, because I am growing, and learning what is truly important, I am learning to abandon the anger that was making me someone I did not like either. To focus daily on what is really important, to want and need to be a better man. Respect, honor, love, they and JUST WORDS if you don't put ACTION behind them. I love my wife and son with all my heart, I was failing to show it, letting anger and ego displace what is real and matters.
I can't get out of my head the question she asked "How can I trust you again, how will I know you just won’t go back to the yelling and anger?" My first reaction as I said the other day was simple... "Because I know what the consequences are and the price is too great."
But it is more than that, because I am growing, and learning what is truly important, I am learning to abandon the anger that was making me someone I did not like either. To focus daily on what is really important, to want and need to be a better man. Respect, honor, love, they and JUST WORDS if you don't put ACTION behind them. I love my wife and son with all my heart, I was failing to show it, letting anger and ego displace what is real and matters.
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