I cannot believe I did not sleep last night. Not one wink. I have Bi-Polar Disorder. When I don't sleep, my moods seem to swing faster and into a stronger depression or mania. So not such a good thing. I'm very tired. I have found, if I take a nap in the afternoon, I sleep better at night. I've also noticed, if I don't take a nap, I dont sleep at night. At all. I tried to sleep yesterday when I got home from therapy, but I was so worked up from my session and I was worried about a friend, I just couldn't sleep. It's like I just continued to get worked up. I have so many things I need to do around the house today, but I feel so sleepy. I don't know how this is going to work out.
I feel silly like I'm whining about sleep when there are others going through so much, but it's not just the sleep. It's the knowing that without the sleep, my moods will become very difficult to manage. Then my chronic pain can spike. Suddenly things are out of control. I need to be very careful not to let that happen. That sounds exhausting. I have to keep my mind away from cutting too. Again I say, that sounds exhausting.