I have some stuff to talk about, but I am not going to address it right now. I do have a question floating around my brain. It is a dilema. Something I am thinking about and I just don't know who to ask about it. I got some advice from some one who knows nothing about me, like less than my friends here because at least you have read my journals. At the time I said no way, it would never happen. But the more I think about it, the more I can't see why I shouldn't. I just don't know if it is the right thing. So I am just asking, if there is anyone out there with an opinion, please let me know.I have been thinking about contacting my best friend from high school. My friend I shared everything with. The person who I chose to first tell about the rape. Accept I have not talked to him since that summer because he wasn't very supportive or it was too much for him. I have recently come into some contact info and I thought there is no way in the world that I would ever contact him, but something in me wants to.The thing is that part of me feels like I would turn into super bitch and yell at him for being an ass. That part of me would just want to yell at him and point out my physical problems that have stemmed from the rape and say see. See what happened.And then there is part of me that just loved him and would love to talk to him again.SO I don't know what I want to do. Maybe I should just forget about him. Part of me thinks I never will.