Got to see the therapist tomorrow. She wanted me to write some kind of commitment to therapy. I wrote something and it is going to end up with the commitment of me. I think it is too much me. Too much honesty. Just TOO much. A friend says I need to share it, but I am really scared. She could think it is fake, fiction and made up. She can think it is too much. She could think I am f*cked up. That is just not what I need.I don't know what to do. I just don't know. I don't trust other people when I have to look them in the eye and they can see me. They can judge me and put a label on me. SLUT. I can just see it now. I don't want to go. I just want to turn the music on and up, pull the covers over my head and sing real loud. Make everything will go away but the music.I am going to watch a comedy show now, try to feel good, maybe read a little, put the headphones on and MAYBE I will fall asleep later.Good night.