I think I made a big mistake. I told an old friend about the rape and I haven't heard from him since. I want to think that he just has not had time to respond to me yet, but I am worried I scared him away. Here is the thing. He was really close friends with me in high school and I had introduced him to my best friend and we hung out. He thought that since Arthur had been my closest friend in high school that it would be completely unbelievable that we would not be friends now.Now I don't mind swapping stories because I loved my best friend and he greatly disappointed me when he wouldn't listen to me about the rape. This other friend was close to, but not the same and I did not ever tell him about what happened before. When he asks me ALL THE TIME about hearing from Arthur, I get upset because I wish we were still close. So I decided to tell this person about that happened to me (the rape and my suicide attempts and the way Arthur left me) so he would understand that I am just not going to ever know anything about where he is. Fine, open topic, let's talk about our past fun experiences. I like that. Makes me feel like I had some fun in high school and not just this one act of violence. (Well, and then I dated an abusive boyfriend for two years, but you know what I mean.) Anyway, I don't want to lose this new refriendship and I feel like I may have done something, said something that was too much and he won't contact me again.