I had upgraded my face in my "I'm feeling" box I think one day I was even green, but today I feel so depressed and I am not sure why. I mean I am in a lot of pain, but what is new about that? I feel lonely, but I always do. I don't know I just feel shitty. And I keep crying and I can't stop. I don't want any more medicine.

Maybe it is because I did not sleep well last night. I was on the computer until 4AM because I could not sleep.

I don't know. I just want to stop crying.

And I crashed the stupid computer again. So I am on the laptop again. This thing hates me. Always messes up my typing and loses things I wrote. Look at me inanimate objects hate me. That's just crazy.

I have an inkling of what might be bothering me, but I am not ready to share until I am sure.

Anyway, I need to decide what to do with myself.

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I hope you start to find some resolution -- maybe you can talk about what is bothering you when your therapist returns. Sleep for me is key -- if I don\'t sleep well, everything is harder to deal with the next day.
deleted_user
deleted_user

I\'m sorry you are feeling this way today, it must be rough and seems to be. I hope when you get back to sleep tonight you tomorrow will be better.