Today I really hurt a friend who was already really hurting. I am the worst friend. I have never really had any because whenever the going gets tough my friends get going.

I feel like such a jerk because I wrote something and sent it to the wrong friend. And to me I didn't say something bad, it just came out wrong and I am really sorry because some one else got it. They got to read stuff about themselves that I didn't mean that way.

I just wanted to talk to some one and I was trying to give a briefing but without saying much because I didn't know if they knew each other and I didn't want everyone knowing everything about everyone else.

I just wanted some one to talk to while my one friend was really suffering. I wanted to be there for him and not ask anything of him and have some one I could talk to.

I don't know. I'm just feeling very sorry. I just want my friends to understand and be friendly with me again. How do I do that?

Now I am sure I am in hell, and it is lonely.