It has been a few days and I have been thinking about what I want to share and what I need to pack back in the box and just try to forget about.

I feel I am losing a friend and I don't have too many of them to lose. Maybe I am imagining it right now. It is just a strong feeling I am getting. Like I am going to lose some one soon.

My pain doctor started me on a new drug. It is something I have taken before. It made me sleep all the time and I mean 24 hours a day. That was around when I had the stroke. My neurologist took me off the drug a long time ago.

I feel like this doctor was trying to trick me. He asked if I had ever taken neurontin and I said yes made me sleep all the time. SO he give me this drug Gabitril which is basically a generic version of the same thing. What do you think that if you lie to me, I will not notice. I feel sleepy and I want to go back to bed. I am sure it will thrill my husband. I want to feel better. Maybe someday. Let's just hope for no more strokes.

I feel like I am slipping back into hell,