I really can't sleep. I don't know if it is being alone or what, but I just really can't sleep.

Mu husband called to tell me he landed and I tried to talk to him but he just brushed me off. He doesn't realize that I just came from a place where people walk in and out and spend 5 seconds with you and and leave. And then he would squeeze in before visiting hours were over and stay until a nurse thew him out. Now I am spending another weeks alone and I cannot even count on a doctor to come in once a day to poke at my stomach.

And all I keep thinking is about this conversation I had with a psychologist while I was there. I want to talk with him again, to understand what he means. I'll talk about that later.

I don't know what I will do if I can't even sleep. I wonder if I am a little manic. I am not going to make it.

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Gee sounds like he isn\'t very invested in you kristen,you ought to ask him if he\'s having an affair,sorry hun that is just what I seem to get out of this I could be wrong but from things you mention this is what I get out of it.Hugs,Kim
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deleted_user

I\'m sorry you are in this position right now, it really isn\'t good. Are you feeling better, physically?
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Not feeling better physically. Actually worse. I am about to take pain meds and lie down.

About my husband, I have thought long and hard about him being with some one else and I have even asked him. He seems insulted and then changes the subject.
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deleted_user

hmmm... changing the subject when you bring up another person doesn\'t sound good to me. I hope you are able to rest.