I couldn't sleep last night until I gave into the screams of my skin. Now I have an inch and a half long slight cut on my left arm. It didn't need to be big and it is barely deep enough to bleed. I just needed to feel pain I had control over. I feel less anxious now, but I feel like a total LOSER!
Lithium by EVANESCENCE
Darling I forgive you after all
Anything is better than to be alone
And in the end I guess I had to fall
Always find myself among the ashes
I can't hold on to me
Wonder what's wrong with me
Lithium- don't want to lock me up inside
Lithium- don't want to forget how it feels without
Lithium- I want to stay in love with my sorrow
Oh, but God I want to let it go
Lithium by EVANESCENCE
Darling I forgive you after all
Anything is better than to be alone
And in the end I guess I had to fall
Always find myself among the ashes
I can't hold on to me
Wonder what's wrong with me
Lithium- don't want to lock me up inside
Lithium- don't want to forget how it feels without
Lithium- I want to stay in love with my sorrow
Oh, but God I want to let it go
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have you ever read any of the dbt manual skills for coping when things feel so out of control? It is a wonderful manual and I have lists all over my house for \"dear man\" skills etc.
I concur with learning DBT skills for soothing and distracting, then getting hold of the situation in a more rational way.
And, my therapist would say you did what you had to do to relieve the stress the only way you could see. The mantra is \"You are doing the best that you can, and you can do better.\" You did what you had to do to manage the situation, don\'t feel so bad about it. You can learn better ways but you don\'t know them yet.
I don\'t know what DBT skills are?
I found you some information. Go to www.dbtselfhelp.com.