In about 12 hours I will have my therapy appointment for this week. Last week was so intense. We talked so much about the hospital. I have other things I WANT to talk about today. I have written things down.

I have seen her for so long and I know she will respect what I want and she will understand that this might be what I need. I also know that she won't leave last week in the past. We will have to talk about it at least a little bit.

I have a song I am bringing with me to the appointment. It's by FUEL. I think I put it in my journal a couple days ago. It's called Untitled. In the past I have brought cd's with me and played a song so she could understand what I am feeling. These are usually productive sessions.

One by CREED
I feel angry, I feel helpless,
Want to change the world.
I feel violent, I feel alone,
Don't try to change my mind.

I feel all those things. Sometimes I like to play the song loud and cry. The song is not about rape, but I feel the chorus really describes how it makes me feel.