I have this desire to write about what happened to me when I was a teen. I feel like spilling it out. Or maybe writing about it would get me passed that point in my memory where everything is black. I don't know. I do know that I am a little afraid. A little afraid of sharing myself that much. I know, I know I have shared a lot. But this is so much more.

Here are the lyrics that best describe me.

Breathe No More by EVANESCENCE

I've been looking in the mirror for so long
That I've come to believe my soul's on the other side
All the little pieces falling, shatter
Shards of me too sharp to put back together
Too small to matter
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces
When I try to touch her

And I bleed
I bleed
And I breathe
I breathe, no more

Take a breathe and I try to draw from my spirit's well
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child
Lie to me convince me that I've been sick forever
And all of this will make sense when I get better
But I know the difference between myself and my reflection
I just can't help but to wonder
Which of us do you love

So I bleed
I bleed
And I breathe
I breathe, no more

Yup, that's pretty much me.