Up And Down
I just did a whole journal entry & it came back server problem & lost it all. I was feeling down enough to begin with. So here goes, again.
I've been feeling really up & down for a few wks now. I usually like the whole ambience of the holidays & I just can't seem to handle it well this year & I seem to want it over with. I feels strange somehow.
Hubby & I haven't been doing that much, the weather can kind of holds him hostage a lot of days but so far we can work around it. I miss alot of the things we used to do throughout Dec that just don't happen right now, the garden centres & trips like that, craft places, meals out at a few fav places. It just doesn't seem to be happening. He had his hormone replacement treatment on Fri. Thats the last in the current session. He'll be tested in Mar & we see where things proceed from there. It's in the Lords hands & we're where he wants us to be but the road can be scary. Come on girl, suck it up I think.
The lupus end of things since the end of Nov is miserable. My skin is in a semi constant state of flare. Some joint swelling for a while in the mornings but it goes away. Mind you the diabetes end of things is pretty miserable right now also. I've heard alot of people with chronic conditions seem to have alot of problems at this time of yr. The whole scenario really puzzles me, what the heck is going on.
I've got an interesting tale to tell with what they're doing with insulin routine I'm currently trying but I think I'll wait till I see my dr again the middle of the wk & then come back on & lay it out for you all. But I can sum part of it up by saying that I'm taking 2 units of insulin for every 15 grams of carbs with a meal. Boy has this made meal planning & eating a pain in the behind.
You know what I'm going to sign off for today, just in case the server goings to reject this again. I'll maybe pick up again tomorrow or Monday. I've really got to pick up my spirits though I tell ya.
Hey I've just started wondering if maybe the lupus issues & the diabetes issues are feeding off of each other & if I can settle one down maybe I can get to a better place overall.
Oh well, I so love all of you for letting me vent here & do some whining. That might help also.
I've been feeling really up & down for a few wks now. I usually like the whole ambience of the holidays & I just can't seem to handle it well this year & I seem to want it over with. I feels strange somehow.
Hubby & I haven't been doing that much, the weather can kind of holds him hostage a lot of days but so far we can work around it. I miss alot of the things we used to do throughout Dec that just don't happen right now, the garden centres & trips like that, craft places, meals out at a few fav places. It just doesn't seem to be happening. He had his hormone replacement treatment on Fri. Thats the last in the current session. He'll be tested in Mar & we see where things proceed from there. It's in the Lords hands & we're where he wants us to be but the road can be scary. Come on girl, suck it up I think.
The lupus end of things since the end of Nov is miserable. My skin is in a semi constant state of flare. Some joint swelling for a while in the mornings but it goes away. Mind you the diabetes end of things is pretty miserable right now also. I've heard alot of people with chronic conditions seem to have alot of problems at this time of yr. The whole scenario really puzzles me, what the heck is going on.
I've got an interesting tale to tell with what they're doing with insulin routine I'm currently trying but I think I'll wait till I see my dr again the middle of the wk & then come back on & lay it out for you all. But I can sum part of it up by saying that I'm taking 2 units of insulin for every 15 grams of carbs with a meal. Boy has this made meal planning & eating a pain in the behind.
You know what I'm going to sign off for today, just in case the server goings to reject this again. I'll maybe pick up again tomorrow or Monday. I've really got to pick up my spirits though I tell ya.
Hey I've just started wondering if maybe the lupus issues & the diabetes issues are feeding off of each other & if I can settle one down maybe I can get to a better place overall.
Oh well, I so love all of you for letting me vent here & do some whining. That might help also.
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I so love you for sharing. It\'s amazing how many things we have in common! Husbands for one example. Dry mouth for two. I know what you mean about this time of the year. I am always stressed when it comes to the holidays and stress just aggravates all our other conditions too. This year I am keeping it as simple as possible. Usually I wrap and mail gifts to all my relatives, but I\'m just not up to all that this year. Besides that my family is all far away in other states and I don\'t have the foggiest idea of what they would like, so this year it\'s gift cards for everyone.
I\'m keeping you in my prayers and happy positive thoughts and I just love having you for a friend! Let us know about the new insulin procedure.
Glad you\'re here venting, tis the place to do so.. Holidays are very stressful, I know I am cutting back on the knick knacks around the house every year, we\'re spending less on gifts. It\'s a fast few days that fly by. I avoid the malls completely. Insane! I hope that they get your insulin routine in a good place, I can imagine what an effort it is, proud of you, stick to it.
You know, just give yourself permission to not love the holidays this year. It\'s okay, it\'s normal, at the end of the day, who cares really? It\'s you and your husband so cherish each other and spend the day without judgement or guilt I say!
Love you, keep the snow okay? xo
I am happy to see your journal and hope all that we say will help you and make you feel better.We are doing nothing special this year either. My health is failing and Terry gets really depressed every winter even more so around the holidays. He has depression and he gets in those moods and I hate it. And because we moved and Molly got sick , we spent all our money so on top of it all I am just thanking God to have a place over my head and some food on the table. I deal every day with my breathing problem and can barely get around much, so your so right when you say we struggle with living. I know exactly how you feel and I do pray for all of us who are sick. May God place His healing hands on you and Mel and pray you feel better. Thank you for your beautiful card. Made my day. Love to you and your\'s..xoxoxo
I was hoping to log on here and see that you are feeling better and am sad to see you are having a rough patch. I got your card, thank you so very much. It made my day to get some love in the mail! I hope our reaches you also! I\'m going to go check out your next entry to see if there is more to the story. xoxo