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Gosh, really had no idea what to call this entry-how can you tell huh.
Things are reasonably OK I guess. Somehow today I'm not sure how I'm feeling abt alot of stuff.
Hubby's doing reasonably well. Some days there is just not much energy for much & I know it really bothers him. He's in the position of always wondering is it the COPD taking it's natural course, is the current round of hormone therapy for the prostate cancer or, here's the one I hate even having to enter, is the C word progressing. At least we seem to be able to talk abt these issues better which I hope can empower us to face whatever battle is ahead with strength although yes I have moments where I wonder - what will I really do, how well will I proceed, etc. etc. I try & stop & remind myself that the negativity and Satan as it's companion will always try & stick their noses in my business.
I have what part of me feels is kind of selfish or self centered thoughts. There's alot we can't do at this current moment & deep down that selfish part resents it. Kind of the poor me, boo hoo type of thing. I try & stop myself short & say, hello girl, there's still tons of enjoyment each & every day so get with the program OK. It seems to make it worse when people I know are doing their holiday things, travelling, the lake, you know the drill. Gee I guess I'm only human right.
The above stuff is reminding me that I need to make some serious time to meditate, lean on our Lord, rely on the few people that I can really turn to & just work on rethinking how I'm approaching life right now.
My one always happy moments - when I first get up in the morning & for the first abt 2 hrs is watching my 6 squirrels. They are so so hilarious. Sharing is not in their vocabularly & boy do they let each other know. They've come to know me & accept me pretty well cause I can go out on the patio & they'll stop acknowledge me, take a few steps & look then it's on the table for their peanuts. And, the smart little monkies, when the spots on the table are empty they'll sit up & tuck their front feet in like a begging motion, or they'll stand on their hind legs & lean against the patio door. One day one was lying stretched out on the end of the table, all four legs flat out & it's like all of a sudden he thought no wait, he turned around to face me, hung his head over the edge & I guess thought OK do I look sad enough now. I've got one strange one that has a snow white tale. I took some photos so hopefully I'll get that on here tomorrow. They do provide so much entertainment though.
Hey do any of my friends here cook eggplant. I've been so curious abt it lately & would love to try it but really have no idea what to do with it. I know I can check the internet but thought I'd try the reliable ones on here first. Just something that occurred to me.
Well my supper is cooking upstairs. I've got a few more things I wanted to include here but it will be a reason for me to check in again in a day or so.
So, all my dear dear precious friends. Please know I send my love, support & wishes for happiness your way.
Things are reasonably OK I guess. Somehow today I'm not sure how I'm feeling abt alot of stuff.
Hubby's doing reasonably well. Some days there is just not much energy for much & I know it really bothers him. He's in the position of always wondering is it the COPD taking it's natural course, is the current round of hormone therapy for the prostate cancer or, here's the one I hate even having to enter, is the C word progressing. At least we seem to be able to talk abt these issues better which I hope can empower us to face whatever battle is ahead with strength although yes I have moments where I wonder - what will I really do, how well will I proceed, etc. etc. I try & stop & remind myself that the negativity and Satan as it's companion will always try & stick their noses in my business.
I have what part of me feels is kind of selfish or self centered thoughts. There's alot we can't do at this current moment & deep down that selfish part resents it. Kind of the poor me, boo hoo type of thing. I try & stop myself short & say, hello girl, there's still tons of enjoyment each & every day so get with the program OK. It seems to make it worse when people I know are doing their holiday things, travelling, the lake, you know the drill. Gee I guess I'm only human right.
The above stuff is reminding me that I need to make some serious time to meditate, lean on our Lord, rely on the few people that I can really turn to & just work on rethinking how I'm approaching life right now.
My one always happy moments - when I first get up in the morning & for the first abt 2 hrs is watching my 6 squirrels. They are so so hilarious. Sharing is not in their vocabularly & boy do they let each other know. They've come to know me & accept me pretty well cause I can go out on the patio & they'll stop acknowledge me, take a few steps & look then it's on the table for their peanuts. And, the smart little monkies, when the spots on the table are empty they'll sit up & tuck their front feet in like a begging motion, or they'll stand on their hind legs & lean against the patio door. One day one was lying stretched out on the end of the table, all four legs flat out & it's like all of a sudden he thought no wait, he turned around to face me, hung his head over the edge & I guess thought OK do I look sad enough now. I've got one strange one that has a snow white tale. I took some photos so hopefully I'll get that on here tomorrow. They do provide so much entertainment though.
Hey do any of my friends here cook eggplant. I've been so curious abt it lately & would love to try it but really have no idea what to do with it. I know I can check the internet but thought I'd try the reliable ones on here first. Just something that occurred to me.
Well my supper is cooking upstairs. I've got a few more things I wanted to include here but it will be a reason for me to check in again in a day or so.
So, all my dear dear precious friends. Please know I send my love, support & wishes for happiness your way.
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Happy that you and DH can talk about C, it\'s not wanted but necessary and communication is so important for you both. Love that you\'re having such fun with your SIX squirrels! I thought I saw a big red chipmunk then my brother said no\' that\'s a red squirrel, rare around here. All they do is empty my feeder. The photo in my journal is NOT my feeder but just shows those beautiful little yellow creatures that give me such JOY. Are you on FB? I saw the most amazing squirrel maze video, you\'d love it. Nope, don\'t like eggplat, can\'t help ya. Love, hugs, prayers, and happiness to you Kitty xxoo
Yes, you are human and we all go through that. God is just so happy when we realize what we are focusing on and turn it over to him and turn to see his face, so it sounds like you are on a good path with that.
I think we can all relate to the frustrations your hubby feels about not having enough energy. I do so hope and pray that his energy returns in time and he can enjoy activities more. You both are in my prayers, please don\'t forget that. : )
We have some baby bunnies in our dill patch and our old schnauzer finds them very entertaining haha. Wildlife sure is fun to watch. Hope you can post some photos soon.
About the eggplant. Well, I TRY to love it, but I just don\'t really. The only ways I like it are to either go the fattening version and make it into eggplant parmesan, which isn\'t very healthy and a LOT of work, and the other way is to just chop it up, coat it with olive oil and salt and roast it for a long time. Then I freeze it and add it to winter soups. That was the most tolerable way for me to handle the volume of it from the co-op during the summer.
Hope you have a blessed week my friend.
Sorry to hear about your hubby, I hope you both can talk and learn about it even though sometimes it\'s just better left with God, I know Satan likes to play with our minds, he does it to me daily, but i find reading the Bible helps especially the Psalms, your squirrel friends sound so interesting, we had black squirrels in some places we have lived and their nice to watch,
Eggplant is pretty tasteless, we put fish batter on it and baked it, seasoned it as well, helps alot, Hope you have a great week, Hugs