This And That
Things are generally coasting along peacefully.
Last Fri my sister & I met at a mall for a lunch & browsing/shopping & just wandering. There were a few things I wanted to pick up at a shop called Lush. They make beauty & bath products that are all natural from fruits, vegetables, plants & natural oils. So we're browsing & a clerk came over to inquire if she could help. As we talked she wanted to know if we wanted a sort of treatment while we were there. I asked how much, she said no charge so of course I'm not turning that down. So we ended up each having a mini half hr facial consisting of cleansing massage, mask, moisturizing, eye treatment. What a bonus!!!!
Re my vasculitis rash problem. As my friends know this is a constant thought companion for me & has been driving me crazy. For some reason I started looking at all the pieces of the puzzle & something occurred to me. I pieced together that the vasculities flares to life within half a day of me taking my methetrexate injection. For abt 48 hrs after the injection I'm in living hell(pardon my language). Into the latter half of Wed it starts to settle down & Thur & Fri are good. Just in time for the Sat injection. I spoke with one of my pharmasicts abt reactions & he did say it appears that that is what might be happening. This is a good thing I think but it still leaves me wondering when I see my rheumy in May where the heck will I go from here. Oh brother!!!!! So I'm doing my own experiment-tomorrow(Sat) I'm not taking a methetrexate injection, I'm going to miss a week & see how things go for the next 7 days. I feel this is what I shd do to really find out if this is indeed the problem.
I'm puzzled abt me & why I find my family such an emotional burden & I have so often where I want to stay at arms length from them. I know this is so not nice but I have so many moments where I feel I just can't align my life with theres. I live my life focusing on my christianity, I shape my life to surround myself with most things that are good for me & my hubby both phsyically & mentally & spiritually. I exercise, I like meditation, etc. Here's an example of something-we just had our income tax done & I'm blessed with getting a good sum back. What do I think of-not clothes, possessions, etc. etc. I think of how much of it I can use to buy food for the mission that I support. Am I weird or what???? I can't seem to relate to my family's superficial & possesion oriented thinking alot of times. My dad's a real negative grey cloud person. Yes I know he's in a health battle right now but my hubby is in almost the same battle & he still looks at life as each day to be embraced for all it offers. I do so pray to our Lord that he can intervene when he feels I'm getting too much off track with them & help show me how to relate to them better. Oh well, keep trying I will.
Well I think thats abt it for now. I send love & more love to all my friends who take time out of their day to check out my journal.
Last Fri my sister & I met at a mall for a lunch & browsing/shopping & just wandering. There were a few things I wanted to pick up at a shop called Lush. They make beauty & bath products that are all natural from fruits, vegetables, plants & natural oils. So we're browsing & a clerk came over to inquire if she could help. As we talked she wanted to know if we wanted a sort of treatment while we were there. I asked how much, she said no charge so of course I'm not turning that down. So we ended up each having a mini half hr facial consisting of cleansing massage, mask, moisturizing, eye treatment. What a bonus!!!!
Re my vasculitis rash problem. As my friends know this is a constant thought companion for me & has been driving me crazy. For some reason I started looking at all the pieces of the puzzle & something occurred to me. I pieced together that the vasculities flares to life within half a day of me taking my methetrexate injection. For abt 48 hrs after the injection I'm in living hell(pardon my language). Into the latter half of Wed it starts to settle down & Thur & Fri are good. Just in time for the Sat injection. I spoke with one of my pharmasicts abt reactions & he did say it appears that that is what might be happening. This is a good thing I think but it still leaves me wondering when I see my rheumy in May where the heck will I go from here. Oh brother!!!!! So I'm doing my own experiment-tomorrow(Sat) I'm not taking a methetrexate injection, I'm going to miss a week & see how things go for the next 7 days. I feel this is what I shd do to really find out if this is indeed the problem.
I'm puzzled abt me & why I find my family such an emotional burden & I have so often where I want to stay at arms length from them. I know this is so not nice but I have so many moments where I feel I just can't align my life with theres. I live my life focusing on my christianity, I shape my life to surround myself with most things that are good for me & my hubby both phsyically & mentally & spiritually. I exercise, I like meditation, etc. Here's an example of something-we just had our income tax done & I'm blessed with getting a good sum back. What do I think of-not clothes, possessions, etc. etc. I think of how much of it I can use to buy food for the mission that I support. Am I weird or what???? I can't seem to relate to my family's superficial & possesion oriented thinking alot of times. My dad's a real negative grey cloud person. Yes I know he's in a health battle right now but my hubby is in almost the same battle & he still looks at life as each day to be embraced for all it offers. I do so pray to our Lord that he can intervene when he feels I'm getting too much off track with them & help show me how to relate to them better. Oh well, keep trying I will.
Well I think thats abt it for now. I send love & more love to all my friends who take time out of their day to check out my journal.
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It sounds to me like you are going down a different \"path\" than your family. While you are experiencing the good positive thoughts, they are still stuck in the negative. Congratulations! You are becoming more aware of your thoughts (positive and negative) and choosing the positive ones. You are blessed!
Much love to you!
Ohhhhhhhh, free facials and treatments......heaven! How much fun is that!!! Sounds like you and your sister had some wonderful quality girl time too!! Put that in your calendar for every month eh?
Family, an emotional burden? Go figure. I think we all have family burdens. Today is my birthday and the first time ever that my dad won\'t join in with me. It\'s 6 months with this rift and I honestly am grieving him now. Don\'t you think this is normal, this burden? I do. Helps me cope with it all, I guess.
Congrats on the refund!!! You are a giving, loving person and you can do whatever with the $$ that gives you joy. WHATEVER! Don\'t worry about those judgemental peeps. Now, I get on too and thought \'what 1 thing will I treat myself to?\'. I don\'t give alot away, me bad, put it in the bank as we still aren\'t as \'stable\' as I\'d like (me temping and DH not working, ya know). BUT you did give me an idea to buy some supplies and food for the humane society. BUT not sure if I can walk in there yet. Maybe in a few months, yes I\'ll do THAT.
Good for you to be experimenting on your meds. You are in control....good luck, Kitty.
OXOX
I\'m glad that you had a brilliant thought about your rash and the mtx injection. It surely sounds like you are on to something to me! I know rashes can definitely be a side effect of mtx! If you are sure, you should def. call your doctor immediately and have them switch you to something else. There is no point in going through that for a medication, right???!!!
I can totally relate about family. sigh. We love them but they SURELY can drive us crazy. That seems to be very normal to me. The older I get the more I understand that everyone seems to have at least one person (if not several) who rub them the wrong way or are abrasive, etc.
I\'d say just keep doing what you are doing, because you are such a wonderful role model to me and many others! Just keep on being you! Hooray about the facial. She surely must have thought you deserved it!
I think you may just solved the puzzle of that rash! gee I hope you did anyways. How nice to get a free facial and all that good stuff , makes you feel good. So sad about that family cause I would give any thing to having mine back. And no your not weird, your doing exactly what God wants us to do help others when we can. do. take care
You are and amazing woman and I love you bunches and barrels. You have made my life a nicer place since we meet. Your uplifting and your love for the Lord are so true and so real. May God keep bringing you closer to him.
Hey your the best.. ..
Love, Frieda
I so hope for, if not a cure, better treatments. Something that isn\'t worse than the diseases themselves.
I am the \'black sheep\' in my family. Not into their lifestyle at all and keep myself distant. Not that I don\'t love them, most certainly do and want nothing but the best for them. Just not willing to sacrifice my calm and peace for their chaos.
You are a wonderful gift to us all. I\'m praying that your body does better without the meds. Be careful and take good care.
XOXO. Teisha