Well I'm keeping determination to stay positive upmost in my mind where my hubby's concerned.  Yes it's ^(#!@% hard at times but I'm trying.  I keep trying to remind myself that this all part of the Lords plan & that he knows what is to be. On a diff note I wanted to show myself that I "can do" so I went to my dance class right after lunch then when I got home had a coffee to rest my left hip(we're doing Latin, Salsa, Brazil, Jamaican, etc.) then made 18 jars of homemade pasta sauce.  We had a mega huge amt of tomatoes fr the garden & I had put some in the freezer so my hubby & I made sauce this afternoon.  I actually handled it way better then I thought I would of.  I've got a craving lately for a nice potato & leek soup so I think I shd make that a goal next week. I so much want to keep myself focused only on the good & everything surrounding it.  I'm almost scared to let the negative find it's way to me as I don't know if I'm strong enough all the time to deal with it.  Oh well. Mechellebelle, my cooking friend, did your journal say something abt pumpkin icing, would sure love to know more abt that.