I cant even tell you how happy I was when I logged on tonight and saw that I had 6 messages and 5 hugs!! All I can say is AWWWW! Thank you! I feel the love! I have gotten lots of compliments on the hair so I'm guessing you all aprove.. Thats always good. SO, went to the pool tonight for my hour workout... or should I say what was MEANT to be my hour workout.. Aparently someone had booked a birthday party for their children so there were nearly 30 people there tonight when normally it would have been Kevin and I and maybe one other couple... SO, I freaked! I was thinking, I just cant handle a little kid saying, "look at that ..... fill in the blank".. Not to mention all of their teeny bopper, young, gorgeous mothers, tan and in bikkini's looking GREAT... I was like, "a baby came out of YOU???" Anyway, so I overcame my urge to turn and run, and got in the pool. I didnt get any heckles despite being the heaviest person in the room. (EASILY the largest). And I even walked right up to one of the teeny gorgeous mothers, in my bathingsuit, no cover up, (well, just swimming shorts; the cute kind that cover the thighs!) and said hello, smiled, and got in the pool. We only stayed for 30 mins though because as time went on it got increasingly difficult to do laps with so many children there. Not to mention the shreiks coming out of them were echoing in the small room and made me feel like my eardrums were about to burst!! But, I did it girls.. I wore my bathingsuit in public and owned it! I may be big but I'm beautiful damnit, and I'm not going to hide myself to make THEM comfortable.. One woman there even said (when she saw me looking a bit nervous)," Own it sweety! You got it, flaunt it! "(she was a bit heavy as well).. SO I DID! Oh yeah!!! 
I'm going to do 30 on the treadmill I think so I can still get my hour in tonight... I feel pretty darn good right now.. And I couldnt have done it w/o all of you. You make me feel like I fit in this world, that I dont have to be ashamed and hide. I'm discovering my inner vixen because if I dont have confidence, I'm never going to be able to get this weight off.. You have to feel that you are of worth to want to work hard for yourself to get healthy.. So lets do it girls!!!!
I'm going to do 30 on the treadmill I think so I can still get my hour in tonight... I feel pretty darn good right now.. And I couldnt have done it w/o all of you. You make me feel like I fit in this world, that I dont have to be ashamed and hide. I'm discovering my inner vixen because if I dont have confidence, I'm never going to be able to get this weight off.. You have to feel that you are of worth to want to work hard for yourself to get healthy.. So lets do it girls!!!!
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Good for you!! You own it.. and rightfully so. I am going to let you in on a secret... well, it wont be any longer. I am a horribly not confident person. I have yellow stickies on my computer to remind me I am a beautiful, confident, intelligent, wonderful woman. I have to read that at least once a week. You are a beautiful woman.... I love all your photos... and the hair looks amazing. You go... knock the world on its behind.
Great job. That is awesome to hear.