At least I had one day that I could feel normal.  My husband yelled at me soooo  bad today, I have been sick all day.  My youngest told me that she hates me, tried to kick me and told me that she hopes that I die.  When my oldest gets home she will be pissed that she had to leave her mom's and will take it out on all of us.  I am afraid that my husband is trying to kill me by saying mean things to me.  He knows that my life insurance policy is a lot.  I have had pain in my left arm all day today.  If I die tonight or sometime soon and you don't see me on this website soon, please report it to the police so that they can have him investigated.  I am going to tell one therapist tomorrow.  My other therapist isn't back until the 25th.  I can't stay with my parents because all the abuse in the past.  I would have to sleep in the same bed where I was hit repeatedly.  I can't stay with my brothers because they live too far away.  I can't stay with my sister because she yells and screams a lot.  My mother in law smokes.  I can't afford to stay in a hotel.  I am going to check around about what programs are out there for people who need to stay somewhere to get away from a verbally abusive husband.  He isn't hitting me.  However, I have sooooo much pain in my left shoulder today, I feel like I am going to die or should be better off dead.  Please someone help me and take away the pain.  I cried my eyes out to my physcharist and he did nothing about my pain.  What can I do?