Today at school I felt like crap.  I did start to feel better once my therapist who is out of town called me.  She said that she was sorry and that my husband had abused me.  I can't take his crap anymore.  He was cutting my therapist down.  He doesn't get any help himself.  I called the psycharist to get the new medication to take because I have been having migranes from the old meds.  Maybe it wasn't migranes, but stress due to taking a new antidepressent.  anyway, I called my brother in law who is very supportive and told him that his brother is asking me for a divorce.  I told my mom, who immediately called my sister who just went through a divorce.  She called and started telling me what to do.  I had an electrial outlet blow up behind my desk today that sent sparks out behind me.  I thought I was going to have to pull the fire alarm.  It turned the outlet black.  Thank god I am still here very scary.  I feel a little better today.  Yesterday all I did was cry.  today, I am going to be strong.  I am having a vag. ultrasound tomorrow and I am scared what they may find.  I have been having a lot of pelvic pain.  I almost do hope that they find something and I end up in the hospital.  then I can get away from my husband and get the rest that I so desire.  I wish my therapist wasn't out of town.  I made an appointment with a back up therapist in 2 days.  I wish I was with the man that I had the affair with.  At least he loved me very much and I loved him.  I miss him soo much. If you are out there please contact me if you use this website.  I miss you so damn much.