what now?
Does anyone else wonder what's next?
My DH and I have agreed to not make any decisions until after the New Year. I know that I am not emotionally ready to decide, nor am I healthy enough physically or mentally to go through another round of IVF.
Regardless, I live every day in fear. What if I do IVF again and it doesn't work? what if I get pregnant and I miscarry again?
what if I really will never have a baby?
all unproductive thoughts, but so very real nevertheless. I am terrified. scared to the point that sometimes I cannot breath.
tomorrow makes only two weeks since I love our baby. it feels like 5 minutes and it feels like a million years. will be heart every feel normal again? will I ever be able to laugh without immediately wanting to cry right after?
My DH and I have agreed to not make any decisions until after the New Year. I know that I am not emotionally ready to decide, nor am I healthy enough physically or mentally to go through another round of IVF.
Regardless, I live every day in fear. What if I do IVF again and it doesn't work? what if I get pregnant and I miscarry again?
what if I really will never have a baby?
all unproductive thoughts, but so very real nevertheless. I am terrified. scared to the point that sometimes I cannot breath.
tomorrow makes only two weeks since I love our baby. it feels like 5 minutes and it feels like a million years. will be heart every feel normal again? will I ever be able to laugh without immediately wanting to cry right after?
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I would guess you speak for most of us, but I know definitely for me. I could have written this journal. I think most if not all, of us who suffer with IF live in fear of \"what\'s next\" and the fear of how or when or if we\'ll have a baby. It\'s so heartbreaking. Please know I\'m here for you during this tough time. Big hugs
Likewise, I am here for you. thank you xoxoxo
I\'m sorry you even have these thoughts. IF is so fucking unfair. Thinking about you!