Now What?

Just when I think my legs are better and I start looking for work then I have a setback.  I think it is because I got so upset last week because it was the 2nd anniversary of my mom's passing and I was thinking about the last day with  her.  I have used the problems I'm now experiencing to bring me closer to God.  I have thought about becoming a nun but I'm too old to start training and I'm not catholic.  I need to find other ways I can help.  It is because of my beliefs that I'm still here and must go forward somehow.