Sad...

It seems like everywhere I turn, everywhere I go and everyone I talk to, everybody has what I want!  Lately, I have felt so alone in this game (with the exception of all of you wonderful women!). In my family, at my job, among my circle of friends, EVERYONE has children, but US! My heart ached when my pg friend at work asked how my holiday was, then she said "did you see your nieces and nephews?" I love all of them dearly, but, will I ever get to talk about a holiday with my own kids? Will people always discreetly wonderif she'll ever have children? I feel like most people that know us, know that we would love to be parents, but may not know why we're not. I sense that there's this nagging question inside of them just wanting to ask us when? After nearly 10 years of marriage, logic has to tell you that maybe, just maybe, something's not right. I don't volunteer our IF details to many, only those who have been there (few), or those that I know genuinely care. For most, I put on a facade while dying on the inside.  My heart hurts. I wish I could say we had a great Christmas, but truth be known, it was quite difficult. It was sad to face yet another holiday without news to share with our family; sad to not have our children's gifts to buy and wrap; sad to see another year come to a close without the sounds of pitter patter running through the house. Here's hoping 2009 will be OUR year! We could use some good news for a change...