4 week countdown

Tomorrow I am 4 weeks out till surgery to make my pouch. my journey of 1 1/2 years is almost at an end.  I am afraid to tell people or to plan for llife after pouch. there have been sooo many plans and so many dissapointments since my original GBS. I can only hope and pray that this time they find nothing out of the ordinary and complete my journey, last time I was mentaly prepared to do what I had to this time not so much. I know when it comes down I will survive but I am so afraid when I wake up it will to be devestaed all over again, as something will go wrong....I have talked my husband into leaving me down at the hospital staying until after my surgery then going home and not coming back until time to pick me up to bring me home!.   more to follow