4 new and back going out. T.T
Back went out last week..was hobling along just tryin to suck it up and deal with it and the monster that graced me with it's arrival in my left armpit without eating all my pain meds ( just tryin to use it for the hs flare). Started taking motrin every few hours to help my back and , was hoping, my flare. I spent two days on my back and would have starved to death if it had not been for my husband and son. LOL.Went to dr gordon, she lanced it and got a sample, and hopefully we can find something to fight this infection. she gave me another refill on my script, but this time for 30...oookkkaayy..I told her I still had some left..and normally, without my back going out, it would have been enough to get me through til at least a couple of days past when it would "normally" be considered "refillable". I talked with her about addiction and such, which irritated me simply because I don't WANT to have to take meds..I don't want to have to take something so that I can stand this abscess rubbing on the inside of my armpit or lady parts or butt! I'd rather not have to take stuff and then have to take probiotics and extra junk so that it don't burn my insides out! I hate it when drs try to act like we are drug seeking when all we are doing is relief seeking..If I could take something that wouldn't have all the side effects that my current meds do (and I DO mean ALL) I'd be first in line to take it. But I'm sure she's just concerned, like any good doctor would be. And things aren't going to get any better now that the hot days of spring and soon to be summer are here. The heat and humidity just kill me on the HS All of my areas are more active in spring and summer and fall..and crop up occasionally in winter. Plus living in a place that is humid, like NC can be really ramps up the flare factor.
Now, most likely because of all the stress throwing my back out, I broke out in a massive flare, 1 large one on the inside right buttock,1 at the opening of my lady parts, and two on the outside of the labia major. The one at the opening has started to drain, but the one on my butt has gone down in height, but increased in daimeter. Just friggin great! So now here I sit in agony again..trying to take my meds and some motrin, using hot compresses and hot baths to try to get these to drain already! wondering where the next one is going to pop up, cause I know it's gonna.
I don't know what else I can do on my end for this. I have gone gluten free, all veggie, all meat..oatmeal diets, rice diets..god I can't count all the 'diets' I have been on in all seriousness, dedicated, only to have it makes no difference in severity or frequency of outbreaks. I use Crystal Deoderant, take vitamins, don't shave, wash often with tea shampoo and use Hibicleans to wash,tried taking tumeric and zinc, and although I felt some better it didn't change how bad or how often they came.
I'm just so frustrated with all this crap I am seriously considering surgery. This is big for me because, after my last surgery, I was absolutely NOT interested in anymore cutting or dicing. I absolutely HATE having to have these fuckers lanced! It hurts so bad when doing it. Most of my experience with lancing has been in the ER and they always numb it beforehand, and that is agony my friend right there. I would say that our doctors should have to go through this one time, and they'd understand better our situation, but I could not..would not..wish this disease off on ANYONE! It is so painful I just couldn't.
I just feel like I'm having to deal with more than I should, sometimes feels like more than I can take and wonder when they'll find me babbling in a corner somewhere..lol
I'll make it through this..I don't have any other choice. I can't give up and there are people counting on me to be there for them, so I have to make it through.
Now, most likely because of all the stress throwing my back out, I broke out in a massive flare, 1 large one on the inside right buttock,1 at the opening of my lady parts, and two on the outside of the labia major. The one at the opening has started to drain, but the one on my butt has gone down in height, but increased in daimeter. Just friggin great! So now here I sit in agony again..trying to take my meds and some motrin, using hot compresses and hot baths to try to get these to drain already! wondering where the next one is going to pop up, cause I know it's gonna.
I don't know what else I can do on my end for this. I have gone gluten free, all veggie, all meat..oatmeal diets, rice diets..god I can't count all the 'diets' I have been on in all seriousness, dedicated, only to have it makes no difference in severity or frequency of outbreaks. I use Crystal Deoderant, take vitamins, don't shave, wash often with tea shampoo and use Hibicleans to wash,tried taking tumeric and zinc, and although I felt some better it didn't change how bad or how often they came.
I'm just so frustrated with all this crap I am seriously considering surgery. This is big for me because, after my last surgery, I was absolutely NOT interested in anymore cutting or dicing. I absolutely HATE having to have these fuckers lanced! It hurts so bad when doing it. Most of my experience with lancing has been in the ER and they always numb it beforehand, and that is agony my friend right there. I would say that our doctors should have to go through this one time, and they'd understand better our situation, but I could not..would not..wish this disease off on ANYONE! It is so painful I just couldn't.
I just feel like I'm having to deal with more than I should, sometimes feels like more than I can take and wonder when they'll find me babbling in a corner somewhere..lol
I'll make it through this..I don't have any other choice. I can't give up and there are people counting on me to be there for them, so I have to make it through.
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