4 more weeks
4 more weeks till i have a baby give or take depends on when it wants to come out. dont know what it is or whos it is for sure, i think i know because of timming, but i read a thing that says u start of 2 weeks pregnant. so really omg know wonder so many get so confused on whos the dady.
i caint believe this is happening this way, i thought i wanted a baby way back when but now i dont have a life , im living with my parents , i got a job that yes works with my life right now but its so emotionally drainning , its three days a week only why am i having so difficult time with it. there 12 hr days there are perks to this job, but it almost feels like its mentally abusive but im not 100 percent sure if thats what it is or if im taking things too personal. my job is a care giver. i do wake ups, cooking , regualar cleaning, and putting to bed. getting constant complants on not being gentle enough, quick enough , and how i caint spell and my grammer sucks, she gotten me at the point i dont want to do any womans hair for the fact of i get yeld at when im doing hers all the time, went to school for hair and as time goes on i feel like i caint even do it for friends and family shes making my worst fear be there .
i dunno how im going to react when i have this baby , im trying to get excited but i feel like its only temparary or fake emotion, i really hope no one can see the fakness towards things ,
im dating a guy whos not the dad, he living with me , hes 26 but i dont know how i feel about him at all , yes i miss him when hes not around we dont fight fight, but theres still somthing weird but prolly different hormones from being pregnant.
my main thoughts that run through my head r can i do it, what will it be like how am i suppose to beable to handle this life, the sad part is i wanted it so bad and now i have it i just dont know, it was better being a fantisy since i dont have money or career or even my own place. as much as i try to go forward it just seems like im standing still
i caint believe this is happening this way, i thought i wanted a baby way back when but now i dont have a life , im living with my parents , i got a job that yes works with my life right now but its so emotionally drainning , its three days a week only why am i having so difficult time with it. there 12 hr days there are perks to this job, but it almost feels like its mentally abusive but im not 100 percent sure if thats what it is or if im taking things too personal. my job is a care giver. i do wake ups, cooking , regualar cleaning, and putting to bed. getting constant complants on not being gentle enough, quick enough , and how i caint spell and my grammer sucks, she gotten me at the point i dont want to do any womans hair for the fact of i get yeld at when im doing hers all the time, went to school for hair and as time goes on i feel like i caint even do it for friends and family shes making my worst fear be there .
i dunno how im going to react when i have this baby , im trying to get excited but i feel like its only temparary or fake emotion, i really hope no one can see the fakness towards things ,
im dating a guy whos not the dad, he living with me , hes 26 but i dont know how i feel about him at all , yes i miss him when hes not around we dont fight fight, but theres still somthing weird but prolly different hormones from being pregnant.
my main thoughts that run through my head r can i do it, what will it be like how am i suppose to beable to handle this life, the sad part is i wanted it so bad and now i have it i just dont know, it was better being a fantisy since i dont have money or career or even my own place. as much as i try to go forward it just seems like im standing still
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