4-5-11
Sorry I haven't written in sooo long! I hope everyone is doing well on here and I am sending positive thoughts!!
Today was a busy day! Glad I went hiking this morning for a few hours and enjoyed the beautiful weather. Went to the grocery store to pick up some food to make a healthly lunch and dinner.
Then I met with my AA sponser to talk to her about my concerns about returning back to work as a a flight attendant on May 1st. She helped me brainstorm and make some notes so I woulded get so intimidated by my pdoc since he was planning on me returning to work in a few weeks and I was extremely nervous and scared to tell him that I don't feel ready yet.
My sponser Connie came with me to the pdoc appt and I had brought her once before one my 1st appt to see him. It actually helped a lot to have her there. I explained to him that I still have a lot of anxiety in the afternoons 3x4 a week. Depression problems still frequentlly in the am trouble getting out of bed. I have had trouble getting my son to school on numerous occasions and sometimes he misses school. Terrible memory problems, it becomes worse all the time, I can't even remember what I did yesterday. I have to write everything down to remember. The pdoc prescribed me Deplin for my memory and its a $100 a month but today I broke down and filled the prescription since I am despirate for help with my memory!! Thats probably what I am struggling with the most!!
My pdoc was not happy at all with my list and thinks I am just anxious to return to work. He said he is getting pressured from the long term disability company to make me return to work ASAP. I found him to be very intimidating that's what made me get emotional cause I felt like he didn't understand me. I am glad Connie was there for support.
I promised my sponser and the pdoc that I would make a list of symptoms and concerns, and rate my mood every morning and afternoon on a scale from 1-10.
It was a drainning day and I am glad that appt is over with for today.
Today was a busy day! Glad I went hiking this morning for a few hours and enjoyed the beautiful weather. Went to the grocery store to pick up some food to make a healthly lunch and dinner.
Then I met with my AA sponser to talk to her about my concerns about returning back to work as a a flight attendant on May 1st. She helped me brainstorm and make some notes so I woulded get so intimidated by my pdoc since he was planning on me returning to work in a few weeks and I was extremely nervous and scared to tell him that I don't feel ready yet.
My sponser Connie came with me to the pdoc appt and I had brought her once before one my 1st appt to see him. It actually helped a lot to have her there. I explained to him that I still have a lot of anxiety in the afternoons 3x4 a week. Depression problems still frequentlly in the am trouble getting out of bed. I have had trouble getting my son to school on numerous occasions and sometimes he misses school. Terrible memory problems, it becomes worse all the time, I can't even remember what I did yesterday. I have to write everything down to remember. The pdoc prescribed me Deplin for my memory and its a $100 a month but today I broke down and filled the prescription since I am despirate for help with my memory!! Thats probably what I am struggling with the most!!
My pdoc was not happy at all with my list and thinks I am just anxious to return to work. He said he is getting pressured from the long term disability company to make me return to work ASAP. I found him to be very intimidating that's what made me get emotional cause I felt like he didn't understand me. I am glad Connie was there for support.
I promised my sponser and the pdoc that I would make a list of symptoms and concerns, and rate my mood every morning and afternoon on a scale from 1-10.
It was a drainning day and I am glad that appt is over with for today.
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