4.5.16

Deep Breaths today.... I have to take deep breaths today and focus on my journey. I  have come way to far now to let myself down, to let my family down and to let down my boyfriend. I will not disappoint him again like I have in the past.... I want nothing more to finish my journey an start a family with him.. I will not look back and I will not fall and stay down... 
 
 
  We had a really nice night together last night before I had to go to work... I know he is trying with me and I could not be more thankful for him even trying to stick around with me. He laughed with me for the first time since everything came to light an I finally stopped lying to him. It felt so nice to hear him laugh again... So today I will take it easy, slow down my thoughts and impulses and breathe..