4-13-11

Boy, I feel like I am falling apart and it's driving me nut's!!!!!! I have been depressed since Sunday from this new medicine for my memory problem called Deplin. I went swimming on Saturday and I still have water in my ears. I have used drops, nothing has helped. I woke up this morning with 2 stye's in my eye. I didn't let it bother me at first, but as the day has gone on it now itches terribly and hurts. I went to ask the pharmasist about it she said just put a warm cloth over my eyes for a hour or so. I took 4 advil today cause I have terrible back pain too and I have been seeing a chiropracter 3x a week for adjustments and acupucture.
I made a gratitude list last night and have been going to AA, and talking to my sponser everyday. I pray too every night.
I have been terribly overwhelmed the past month with my son's behavior, lying to me about everything. Last week his bike got stolen and his favorite scooter, and some stranger in the other neighborhood gave him a bike, which I've been furious about this entire complicated story. My old sponser today said to me that she thought my son is the reason for all my problems. Which I really resented her saying that even if it's true cause I love my son very much. That's one of the reasons I stopped working with her is because she resented my son and always wanted me to send him to live with his dad, my old sponser Dolly, is in her mid 70's and I think she doesn't even know what shes saying half the time. I always get mad at myself for still talking to her at all!! But, I turn it over to God.
I don't know what to say.. just been having a really rough week. Exercise doesn't even feel like it helps and my memory gets worse everyday. It's sooooo stressful.. I hate crying,but I do a lot of it lately. This to shall pass...

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Awww...I wish I could wave a magic want and make it all go away. I wish there was something more I can do. Just know I am here if you need to talk or cry or scream....no judgements here! And no, I don\'t think your son should go live with his Dad either. I am glad you are not listening to your old sponser. Hang in there. Love \'ya