3rd day.. again..

3 days sober , again.. last nite i thought baout smoking a lefty, but by the grace of God I did not. when u are counting sober days, does the one day u start off with the hangover count? i started taking my fertility pills again this morning. we will see. i still hvae not heard fom the state if we have been approved for foster parenting. my job is getting worse and worse. i have been here 4 years.18 years ago, i started out in this business on the bottom level. Have worked my way up, up, up. About 2 months ago, was calle din the office and told we were "downsizing" and i would have to go back to doing what i started out doing 18 years ago.i hate it.i know if i was desperate for a job, I'd do it in a heartbeat, probably. but i don't feel good about it.. not here. i wonder why??