3dp5dt
I am already going a bit mad, not a good sign! I think I lasted longer before i was stressing last time! Im not really stressing, more obsessing. I have wished on stars and dandelions, rainbows and those floating things that you wish on!
Every time i go to the bathroom I pray to see a little spot of blood, jut to make me believe in implantation. Last time there was no blood and no baby so this time i feel like i need blood otherwise its the same as last time, I still cant get over the complete unknowness of it, I just was certain youd have a strong feeling one way or another and you really don't!
I lingered in front of the pregnancy test section of the supermarket today trying to decide if i want one for the drawer. Ive been considering testing on the morning of my beta just to prepare myself for the result, but I don't know what i really want, maybe i want to believe as long as possible so not to test, or maybe i want to be prepped for the bad news, or maybe.....I don't know!!!
I don't know
Every time i go to the bathroom I pray to see a little spot of blood, jut to make me believe in implantation. Last time there was no blood and no baby so this time i feel like i need blood otherwise its the same as last time, I still cant get over the complete unknowness of it, I just was certain youd have a strong feeling one way or another and you really don't!
I lingered in front of the pregnancy test section of the supermarket today trying to decide if i want one for the drawer. Ive been considering testing on the morning of my beta just to prepare myself for the result, but I don't know what i really want, maybe i want to believe as long as possible so not to test, or maybe i want to be prepped for the bad news, or maybe.....I don't know!!!
I don't know
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I can\'t even imagine the stress you\'re under right now. I\'m sure I would be a total basket case!! Thinking about you :)
*HUG!! Hang in there friend! I am thinking of you and quietly following your story. I am cheering you on!
I didn\'t bleed when it didn\'t work or when it did! I was convinced my FET hadn\'t worked and then couldn\'t believe it when it had...thinking of you and hoping this time will be it!
Ugh - the 2ww is not fun!! I did not see anything pink until 12dp3dt.....so I would assume no implantation bleeding....please don\'t think that is a sign for everyone!! Keep up the faith and hope. Cheering you on!!
I didn\'t have any implantation bleeding with this one it the pregnancy over the summer so don\'t get caught up in thinking you have to see it...especially if you are on crinone because that hides everything! I\'m thinking of you, praying for you and sending lots of positive baby thoughts your way!!
I know how you\'re feeling right now, its excrutiating!! I would say don\'t test but hell, I did becuase I\'m a spaz....I think doing it the mornning of the beta might work! I didn\'t have implantation bleeding either so don\'t be too obsessed about that, every women\'s body is different. Good luck!!
I keep missing journal updates!!! Darn DS has quit giving me emails on my friends journal entries. Wahoo for PUPO! I really hope and pray this gives you a BFP. I have only had implantation bleeding one time and that was my non-IVF child. Try not to worry if you do not have implantation bleeding. Anyway, good luck my friend!