these last couple of days has been rough. my mind is constantly on what if my baby was here what would thing would have been like? i know that things happened for a god maybe my reason was that God wanted me to be married first and then i would have a child/ I know that things happened in his timing but i feel like it was my fault. i'm hurt because the guy wanted me to get an abortion and then he wants to try to get me to have sex with again just because. I wish that i could took everything i did with him back but i know that i cant deal with what happen it in the past and that it was a lesson learned. God has place someone in my life that I'm happy content with and I would trade him for the world.