Better

So I am feeling a little better today. Aidan Andrew is still putting up a good fight for his life. Found myself crying again in the shower this morning, but it has been such a relief to be able to feel so deeply and release. It's just not like me to cry and be so emotional, but I suppose it is a good thing. I guess it shows that I am alive after all. Being married to a Scientologist for so many years sort of killed me emotionally. They don't believe in being emotional, and hell, I am a very emotional and loving person, not the fucking robot I had become over the years. So now I have learned a little more about who I am. Progess once again.  I am going to give myself a break away from the heartache today. Going on a nice long drive out to the country with the dogs in tow. Bought a ton of deli meats and just stuff. Going to go meet a new friend that lives out on a farm in the middle of nowhere and I can't wait. Fresh air and lots of room to walk and some good company to boot. It should help to raise my sprits. We have only talked on the phone up to this point, but it was all good. We talked for 3 hours last night and I laughed until I was in tears and my stomach hurt, so I am so looking forward to meeting him. A new friend, some good conversation, A picnic, a kite, and the dogs. What else could one ask for on such a beautiful day???