Thanks to all of you on this site I am feeling much better. I went back and read some of my journal entries from a few weeks ago, and it showed me how far I have come in such a short period of time. I know when I return home I will still have some difficult days, but I know all of you are there to help me though all of this emotional mess.I still have days when I still just can't believe all of this has happened. Sometimes it still seems like a bad dream I am trying to awake from.I have been thinking of what I want from my life, and I still don't know most of it, but there are a few things I do know.1) I want to be able to somehow make a mark on this world and do something that will somehow make the world a better place.2) I want to be a better person, not that I'm not a good person now, but I want to improve on who I am.3) I do not want to be living from paycheck to paycheck. I don't need to be rich, but I would like to be a little more comfortable and not worry about each bill that comes in the mail.4) I want to fall in love again at some point in my life and be able to share all the above mentioned with this person.5) I want to be able to reach out and be able to touch other peoples lives and help them with their wants and needs.I know, I want, I want, and I want. Maybe I need to learn not to want so much, them maybe not. Now the hardest part. Where do I start with this all?