SO today was ok. I slept really well, almost for 12 hours last night. No alcohol, but I did cheat and take a pill from the doctor.  Woke up just in time to take a shower and clean the house up a bit before the cleaners came. They did a wonderful job on the house. I just wasn't up to cleaning before leaving for too weeks. I went and picked my daughter and grand son up and we went to IHOP for breakfest, hit the grocery store and back home. Then the power went out. Ended up having to call an electrician and had to have the main curcuit changed. $500 later we have power again after being in the dark for a couple of hours. At least it happened before I left. I tell you, since the night my husband died I have been having problems with electricity. The night he died I was in Philly and my heater broke, since I have come home I have had lights that don't work, all kinds of things,its weird to say the least. Over all I think I am ready for my trip. A little distance my even be good for me. I will have to face my problems for the rest of my life, so I will call this a short reprie from my life. Plus I should be so busy that I won't have time to think about these things as much, giving my brain a much needed break.