I managed the entire day at work yesterday. Took the medicine the doctor ordered up and it really seemed to bring my head out of the cloulds. Managed to get a ton of work done. So I was pretty proud of myself. Got a little anxious on the way home, that always seems to be the hard part for me. Going home and knowing he won't be there, but my grand daughter was there so that was nice not having to be alone. I told her to call up some of her friends and have them come over. I like hearing people around me. Had to take off today so I can have an alarm system put in. I didn't manage to sleep hardly at all last night. Just kept waking up tossing and turning, and now I have hives, what fun. Waiting for the medication to kick in so I can go take a shower. The hot water seems to make them worse. i can never figure out what to do with myself on my days off up this early. I know when the medication kicks in I will be tired, but the installers are suppose to be here early. I just I can stop worring about every little thing and just take a nap on the couch dowstairs. I find myself worring about just stupid stuff.My work told me that they are shippping me back off to Philadelphia for the last few weeks of the month. Normally I really love to travel, even if it is  for work, but that's where I was when I found out my husband had passed, so I am sort of bent about it. I have to many people counting on me to make sure the company pulls in money this month so I keep telling myself I need to think about the entire picture. If I don't go, its possible that people will be let go, and I don't want that on my shoulders.