Yesterday was a prety good day as far as they go these days, until I received this hateful e-mail from my mother in law. She has been like my own mother since mine passed away 4 years ago. She was even more then that, she was my confidant, and I thought my best friend. I told her everything. She writes me what a hateful person I am and that I just couldn't wait to get her sons things out of my house, anngy because I wouldn't let them take the few things that I have left from him, evern though while I was getting ready for my husbands memorial service my brother in law took all 8 of my husbands guitars. I told him he could have one. I had to beg my father in law to except a ring back that my husband had said had been in the family for years. I gave my brother in law my husbands favorite lether jacket I bought him for Chistmas last year and a ring I had given my husband for our 4th anniversary. She was all bent out of shape because I wouldn't give him my husbands motorcycle, well my husband had just told me weeks ago that he didn't want his brother to have a thing of his. I knew my husband wasn't in his right mind at times, so I still told my brother in law he could have it, but the son of a bitch doesn't have a driver license or insurance. In the state of California I can not give or sell a motor vehecle without those two things. I told him I could either put it in his fathers name if he was willing to take responsiblity for it, or I would sell it and give him the price we had purchased it for so when he got his self together he could buy something himself. What do they tell me "go Fuck yourself, we don't want anything from you" I was in tears. I know my mother in law is in horrible pain and on tons of medication. She has been fighting cancer for 20 years now. I'm just hoping that was just the drugs talking. SHe told me that they blocked my phone number and by e-mail so don't bother to try to get a hold of them. So now I have lost my husband and my best friend all in two weeks. I don't know to cry or yell at this point. I really though up to that point I was doing better. I even managed to get though some paperwork yesterday and do some laundry. Now I just want to go back to sleep.