I kept myself pretty busy today. Still trying to clean up some of the junk my husband had laying all over the house.  He was a pac rat to the highest degree. I went out and met a new friend for a cup of coffee. Nice person. Then I came home and picked up my grand daughter and her friend and took them bowling, anything to get out of this house. I had to stop for gas on the way home, and once again the feelings of dread hit me that when I walked though my front door he wouldn't be there.