I just don't where to start or end. My husaband of only 50 passed while I was on a business trip just last week. I have limited family and friends. My grandaughter is with me now, but of course the phone has now stopped ringing and I just feel so alone. This man was my entire world. Work has been good to me, but life has to go on, and I only get a week off. Maybe that's best. I'm scared to stay in my own house by myself. If it wasn't for my dogs I would have called a relator up and told them to just sell the house without ever going back inside. I've cried so much, and I can't seem to control it, it just happens whenever it feels like it. It's has been hard even force myself to get into a shower. I keep expecting him to walk in the door or call, or just be downstairs watching TV. I have never in my life felt such sadness, and even with people around I feel so all alone. How do I cope with all this madness. The services were yesterday and I just feel like I am going to lose my mind.