Depressed

I'm having A bad night with my depression.The weekend was'nt that great.Work tomarrow "UGH" I would rather stay in bed and cover my head.My work is'nt even bringing me pleasure anymore.With health care the way it is I can't even go to the doctor.My eye is runny yet from the Bells Palsey but according to some people if I can't drive the best car into heaven I'm not deserving.Even tho I'm depressed I still have A good self esteem because I know I do deserve!!