Today I'm going to write.  I'm up early, I am drinking my Chai and now it's time to get off here and do some writing/healing.  God I know that book won't write itself, but truly I'm at the point to let it go, but then I want desperately to change the world and know that it will open doors so I have to write, I have to write.  I have to get on Oprah and wherever else and educate women educate mothers.  I have to.  I want to change those laws, I need to change those laws.  there are too many loop holes for these sickos.  Way too many.  Sigh.  Deep sigh.  Here I go to go open and unlock that door and feel the  pain that's enough to kill me.  wish me luck